IT’s life!

We all have a dim perception that software engineers are people who wear blue shirts and black pants with Id cards around their necks. Curse these people for introducing the concept of Id cards. They are people who pay more attention to their orkut/facebook profiles than their clothes and their only source of fun are crap forwards and the ultra frequent coffee breaks to the closest expresso machines. One can easily identify these people; with sleves folded upto the elbows, flashing the latest mobiles, lost, confused, with smoke forming a mysterious halo around them and cursing some one all the time (in most cases it’s their manager). Madhur Bandarkar made a movie on fashion industry and claims he had to spend 1 yr formulating the story. It was a good one, really, but am sure that even if he spends the rest of his lifetime searching for a story on IT sector, he can’t make anything more than a 20 minute short film which will be crtitically acclaimed and shunned by the masses.

Will be back soon to analyse why!

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Kal is Back!

To be honest with myself, I was unable to comeup with anything concrete  to write on and the last two months have been pretty hectic. On the brink of completing more than 1yr work experience,  the very purpose I started afresh, I do have regrets. Wonder how ppl say, I dont have any regrets. My mind says I have gained a lot but my bank balance contradicts  it blatantly. But Heck! If one doesn’t spend in the 1st yr, when else does he?

So here you go:

On a breezy Wednesday morning, when the morning sun decided not to come out at all, I step out, armed with my desk keys, wallet and my id card. Like any movie story, there is music playing in the background, a song Dil Gira Dafatan, from Delhi 6. I pinch myself and rub eyes to check if I am awake, as hyderabad rarely has such amazing moments. Today was one such day. Life is unfair. It rarely gives you amazing weather and the very same day it floods you with work so much so that you remain stuck to your seat, wen some buggers sit on bench and crib about getting bored. Aah..the grass is always greener on the other side, is that a calvin quote? Now it seems so difficult for me to guess the writer of a quote, I assume that its always Calvin… Oh great alter of passive entertaintment, bestow upon me thy discordant images so as to render liner thought impossible. So, coming back to the weather… I remembered an old song I used to sing in my initial days of training.. ‘Zindagi ne Zindagi bhar gham diye, Jitne bhi MAUSAM diye, sab namm diye’. How brilliant!

So, as I proudly say, I AM Discreet…and will be back soon! TC till then…………..

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Random thoughts

Over the last few weeks, I have been posting lyrics & translations more than blogging in the essential spirit. Now I realized, am pretty high on emotions and have decided that the self imposed exile needs to end as one’s best comes out when emotions run high. So, here you go.

There were several reasons for this self imposed exile.  Those who know me, know how radical I am and how easily I get distracted. But one of things I have always liked about myself was my ability to take stiff decisions and do what I felt was right and this : the ability to say NO to people close to me, both of these were going down. Then a friend of mine reminded me that not all changes are good and to be optimistic about all of them is also not  good, so I decided to do a system scan.

The results of the scan were :

Well to start off, 10 months of corporate culture can bring changes in how we behave with people but that is secondary. The significant thing is how I treat people who matter to me, after all this change. To give in to somebody else’s ideas to make another somebody else happy…when I have some far better ideas of my own. In short, resistance decreases.

Next, we get trapped into this professional organization where we have to be nice to everyone, whether we like it or not. Like, we all have faced this before, where we have to be nice to a bunch of very senior guys as they  going to decide when we get promoted or in college where they decide our marks. I know that we have to be ourselves & stick to our morals but trust me, its all crap. Its a good philosophy which works very well in college but no where else. Can you go to a wedding & stand in the corner without your parents telling you to be more social? One may say, don’t go to weddings. But here the analogy is Weddings are similar to Corporate companies. You are not interested in all the aspects of it but on the first of every month, you will be happy!

I have been fortunate that the company I am in has been pretty lenient on most of the corporate formalities and ppl are pretty chill about the way one works but nothing is absolute na. It comes across once in a while and that pisses one off. You feel like being nice to people after that, but that again is reducing the resistance factor.

So how do we get back to the brick hearted person we once were? System Restore.

I call all this being nice to unwanted ppl, giving in to somebody else’s plans as Good Boy Skills Technology 1.o. It has stopped at 1.0. Coz, the next version is obsolete.

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Relax, it means nothing!

Sometimes, in the course of things, and our prevailing mindsets, a movie which might be a cheap Indian version of American Beauty might appear as a masterpiece, even if it heavily criticized and called a no-brainer….am referring to the movie ‘Dil, Dosti Etc.’ We can sit and discuss the star cast, the plot, the unnecessary obscenity and mindless music of the movie since these make up a quintessential Bollywood movie. But we can do another thing too, ignore that this movie had a star cast, close our eyes and ears when all the obscenity and foul language is used, and jump directly to the plot and more importantly, dialogs.

Dil Dosti Etc

The plot is a pretty weird college life story which revolves around the philosophies of a ‘careless cosmopolitan rich son’ and the dreams of a Bihari ‘politician in the making’. It starts of this way

“When you are young, you believe that the possibilities are endless”

….so true, at 16 we believe we are the best the world has ever seen but when we see that there are a lot more people like us, we realize we have to create possibilities. Sanjay Mishra (Shreyas Talpade) and Apurv (Imaad Shah) are the two college students who also happen to reside in the same hostel.  He comes across another collegian Prerna (Nikita Anand) who aspires to be a model. Apurv comes from an affluent family but somewhere he finds excitement in discovering things which cannot be seen in everyday life. He visits a prostitute Vaishali (Smriti Mishra) and at the same time tries to woo a school-girl Kintu (Ishita Sharma). Sanjay cannot understand how Apurv can lend his heart to two women at the same time and the latter reacts by saying that ‘love’ is only a four letter word. So Sanjay challenges Apurv to make three women fall in love with him before his election results are declared. Sounds stupid? Told you, the story is weird.

The movie gets the feel from the coldness of Apurv and the way he delivers his dialogs.

Maybe you shouldn’t judge a book by its cover.

One road leads to many others, dont know where this will take me.

Lagta hai saari zindagi padi hai,kuch bhi paa sakthe hai…
Hazaaron mauke milenge, jinhe sachhai mein badalne ke liye chahiye sirf chaahat..

Jo aapki ek khwaaish poori ho sakein toh kya maangenge aap??
Daulat, shauharat, pyaar ya dosti??

This whole story can be related to what is going on in our lives, the fact that we compromise and sacrifice a lot and make and break relationships and more importantly lose a part of ourselves in order to get or achieve something. And after getting that, we regret that we have lost a lot and realize that we have learnt a lesson, a very brutal lesson. Coming to the best dialogs …they were prolly kept for the end.

Ab kya manzil aur kya faasle?
Lagta hain sab fark mit gaye

Kya humein wahi mila jo hum chaahte the??
Hum apni chaahat ko paane ke liye kya kuch nahi karte??
Lekin kabhi sab daon pe lagaake bhi kuch mile tho,
Lagta hain ki humne zindagi se yeh toh nahi maanga tha…

So finally, the movie ends in a state of confusion which is very similar to mine. So, I guess I liked it for that reason. My state of confusion in life reflects the fact that one thing cannot alone amuse me. I’m passionate about too many things in Life.

Watch this with a very very broad mind and a small piece of info, no girl I know has liked this movie even a single bit. Oh yeah, the Dialog of the movie : Relax, it means nothing. Watch the movie to understand it.

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Kitni Baatein : Music & Lyrics – 14

This is a slow song from my Fav Hindi Movie, Lakshya.

Kitni baatein yaaad aati hain,
All those talks that I remember,
Tasveerein si ban jaati hain,
Which have frozen like pictures,
Main kaise inhein bhooloon, dil ko kyaa samjhaaoon,
How can I forget them, what should I tell the heart…

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Kitni baatein kahane ki hain,
I want to say many things,
Hothon par jo sahmi si hain,
But they remain silent on my lips,

Ek roz inhein sun lo, kyun aise gumsum ho,
Listen to them one day, why are you so absent minded…

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Kyun poori ho na paayee daastaan,
Why did the story remain imcomplete,
Kaise aayee hain aisi dooriyaan,
Where has this distance come from…

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Donon ke dilon mein chhupaa hai jo ek anjaanaa sa gham,
In both our hearts, an unusual sorrow is hidden,
Kyaa ho paayegaa vo kam, koi kyaa kahe,
Will it reduce, what can one say,
Donon ne kabhi zindagi ki ik mod pe thi jo payee,
Both of us had once reached a curve in life,
Hai kaisi vo tanhaai, koi kyaa kahe,
What kind of loneliness, what can one say…

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Kitnaa veeraan hai ye samaa,
How isolate is this moment,
Saanson mein jaise ghultaa hai dhuaan,
Like how smoke languishes in the breaths,
Kaise aayee hain aisi dooriyaan,
Where has this distance come from…

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Tumse aaj yun milke dil ko yaad aaye lamhe kal ke,
After meeting you today, the heart remembered those moments from yesterday,
Ye aansoo kyun hai chhalke, ab kyaa kahein,
Why have these tears splashed, what have I to say now…
Tumne hamko dekhaa jo aise to ek ummeed hai jaagi,
When you saw me in such a way that an expectation has grown, a hope started,
Phir tumse pyaar paane ki, ab kyaa karein,
To obtain your love once agian, what to do now…

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Aa gaye ham kahaan se kahaan,
Where have we come to,
Dekhe mud ke ye dil kaa kaarvaan, kaise aayee hain aisi dooriyaan,
The caravan of the heart turns and looks, where has this distance come from,

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Kitni baatein kahane ki hain,
I want to say many things,
Hothon par jo sahmi si hain,
But they remain silent on my lips,
Ek roz inhein sun lo, kyun aise gumsum ho,
Listen to them one day, why are you so absent minded…

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